Kobey Adam Richardson

This is a group to pay tribute to my beautiful son, Kobey Adam Richardson, who passed away in my
arms on 6.3.07 aged just 15days.
When he was born, the doctors presumed he was a happy healthy baby and discharged us both from
hospital.
He seemed ok, until his 15th day, where he was really lethargic and wouldnt drink any milk. my gp
thought he had a chest infection so sent us to a childrens ward in leicester royal infrimary. In the
car on the way there, i couldn't stop thinking that this could be the last music kobey would hear.
the last song on the radio was 'Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.'
When we got there, they thought he may have meningitis, so took him off for a lumbar puncture. It
was unsuccesful as the sample got contaminated with blood. He was in a lot of pain from this, and
the nurses wouldn't let us hold him. The nurse made a 'nest' in the cot, and i took loads of
pictures of him. He was on a drip, and although he was in pain, in my eyes he looked as if he was
getting better, as his jaundice was fading loads. stupidly, It wasn't until later when i reviwed the
pictures that i realised he was turning grey, he was dying in front of me, and i was happily
(naively) thinking he was going to be fine.
They kept doing loads of tests on him, checking his acid levels in his blood and his oygen sats, as
they were getting lower. After about the 8th/9th time of checking these levels, a nurse picked him
up and ran with him. We still didnt know what was wrong, and we were still being told he would be
ok. we were left on the ward wondering what was happening. i was screaming down the corridoor after
the nurse, but she just told me to stay there. A different nurse came back and said he had been
rushed to intesive care, she felt the feminal pulses in his legs and there were none. so, kobey lost
his legs.
We weren't allowed in to intensive care, but a doctor came out and told me she thought kobey had a
heart condition, and they were trying to resucitate him with cardiac massage.
Finally, after a lot of begging, They then allowed me in, he looked so small with all these nurses
around, and all these tubes in him. i stood there crying, wishing him to come through, i touched his
legs and they were cold. I just kept rubbing them as hard as i could screaming. 'come on kobey, wake
up for mummy, stop pretending now little man' The nurse told me i had to leave as i was getting too
upset. I ran out of there and ran to the hospital chapel, crying my eyes out, screaming for him to
be saved. I came back up to the itu, and the nurse was waiting for me. She told me i could go back
in again. When i went in there they took me into a side room and said i could hold him. At this
point i didn't realise what was happening. i thought for some reason he was better. Anyway, i held
him, i cuddled him as tight as i could and i kissed his head. he was still slightly warm. They then
pronounced him dead in my arms on 6.3.07, within 5minutes of me holding him.
Me, my mum and Ross held him for hours, i wish it could be forever though. We bathed him, took
prints of his hands and feet, and we had a chaplain come and bless him. It was the most horrible
feeling in the world having to hand him over to the nurse, and leave the hospital with an empty car
seat. i begged the nurse to look after him when we left, crying my eyes out, saying 'he's too young
to be left alone, he needs his mummy.' It didn't hit me at that point that i would never get to hold
my precious little boy again.
I finally got in the car to come home, and the first song that was on the radio again, was Chasing
cars by Snow Patrol. i knew this was a sign, and decided id have it played at his funeral.
Kobey had to have a post mortem which showed that he did have congenital heart disease, he had a
coarctation, a narrowing in the main aorta. He also had a hole in his heart. So, he was pretty much
slowly dying for the 15days he was here. There was an inquest held, as this should have been picked
up during my pregnancy scans, as i did have 6, and also could have been picked up at birth.
We held his funeral on 16.3.07. He was dressed in blue denim dungarees, and had his white coffin
full of teddy bears with him, and pictures of our family. It was beautiful. We hired 2 white horses
and a white carriage, and the horses had baby blue plumes. We had all his flowers in white and baby
blue. We had chasing cars by snow patrol, and you'll be in my heart by phil collins played at the
church service. everything was perfect, for such a perfect little man. He was the buried in Mill
lane cemetary, in Earl shilton.
We'll love you forever baby boy. Rest in Peace. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx